It is with an extremely heavy heart that I share the passing of my beautiful Nugget. I wish I had added some updates in the past 3 1/2 years, but sometimes you think that you will have forever. Forever came much too soon, and I am finding it hard to accept he is no longer at my feet. My Nugget developed a lot of anxieties over the years, and though we tried very hard, we were never able to get them totally under control. That being said, even with his fears, his life was happy and full. He preferred simply being "at home," and since I work for the most part from home, he was able to spend many contented hours with his fiercely devoted mom. He was also totally devoted to his fur siblings, Bear and Belle, and was never too far from either of them. We always laughed that he was Belle's "minion," as whenever she wanted something, he let out a sharp bark to alert us to her needs. I miss those barks, and even Belle seems baffled by the silence. Though Nugget wasn't always fond of foster dogs in our house, there were some moments that will stay in my heart forever. For a brief period of time, we fostered beautiful Annie, the grand dame from a terrible breeding situation. She was terrified beyond words, and something in her reached out and touched my Nug. More times than not, we found him protectively and quietly guarding her crate, and I know she found comfort from his presence. Nug also thrived with foster, Red, because truly, was there a soul out there that could resist the Old Pirate? And finally, there was my last foster, little Wilson. Nuggie and Wilson were like soul brothers, bonded at the hip, and it was rare to see one without the other. You couldn't help but smile and laugh when you saw the joy they found in each other. I wish he could have stayed with us longer, but his mind continued to fail him, and finally his body joined in and did the same. So many times, we have to make that heartbreaking decision to let them go, and let them go with their pride and dignity intact. Though part of me still aches with the decision, I do know that it was the right thing to do. His last day on this earth was full of joy, with non-stop spoiling and cuddling, lots of delicious and naughty food, and incredibly priceless time spent outside with his siblings, letting his nose lead him wherever it could. That was always one of his favorite things to do. We held him tightly in those last minutes, and told him that better things were to come, and that our dogs who had already crossed would be there to meet and show him the ropes....Murphy, Lucky, Dukie, Red, and of course, Wilson. My heart aches and will ache for a long time to come, but I do smile and find some peace, knowing he is romping happily around the Rainbow Bridge with his nose to the ground and his tail high, strong in mind and body once again. I love you and will never forget you, my sweet Nugget ...run free and strong until we meet again.
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